Mark and I (the so called perfect relationship) have kind of broken up - I say kind of because we’re still having sex! This is my selfish way of keeping him until he’s less of a moody cunt. (his words!) He says the relationship got too emotional which neither of us do very well - but he was the one pushing all the lovey dovey stuff. So really he’s screwed himself over on this one. The thing that did it for me though was him saying he was gonna go out last friday then saying he wasn’t going or saying he’ll definitely go on wednesday but then saying I’d rather go out with my mates - really make syou feel appreciated even though hes spent every other night and day that week with his mates. Add to that since we got back to uni he’s hardly touched me and his body language has been terrible towards me - everyones picked up on it. It went from him not being able to keep his hands off me to not even hugging me back - thats the most upsetting thing at all.

Apparently me being depressed is bringing him down - its his aggressiveness towards anything I say thats making me say mean things to him which get him down.

I know I nagged about the whole why wont you touch me thing - but I’m well within my rights (not only cos I’m a woman!) just think how you’d feel.

Dont send lovey dovey I’m sorry comments - I had the worst bits the last two weeks, now I’m looking forward to next wednesday where I intend to make lots of new ‘friends’. Yet I still have the (fucking awesome) sex with mark! Yes! Feel free to bitch about men though - I’m all for it!

I’m actually even happier today because a friend of mine text me. She’s not spoken to me in weeks and thats the best thing of all in my opionion! She still cares!

Its definitely the season for breakups - we count 4 so far!

I’d actually forgotten I had a website! I can’t say that I’ve been busy, I had tuesday and wednesday off!

I started back at uni on Monday, straight into the c# code - we did the theory last term - so now its time to do some programming! I do miss programming, probably why I enjoyed the matlab so much - at least you have someone to ask if you get stuck, unlike learning a new language online where you (usually) get snide n00b comments!

Today I had a 7 hour Maya Lab, my eyes are burning! We modelled a polygon face using polygon planes - could it be anymore long winded! - modelling with nurbs is SO much easier (and quicker!)! We’re gonna be animating soon - our final animation is worth 80% of the module - fun fun! I hope they like my rabbit monster! (we have to model a monster!)

Worse thing about the lab was the image references - I dont like staring at some poor woman in her underwear for 7 hours! Though I suspect the male population liked it a lot!

More lectures tomorrow then two nights of going out! I’m not in the mood for going out much at the moment - I’d rather wait till its warmer outside, its deathly cold here, I nearly got blown away in the wind today - scary stuff!

Spoilers!
I saw I am Legend tonight when we went out for my dads birthday. Will Smith is amazing in it. The film itself however isn’t really all its cracked up to be. They could have gone so much more into the story line and they didn’t. They seemed to barely scratch the surface. They filmed things that to me had much more meaning but they never mentioned it once. When he caught one of the infected he comments on how one exposed himself to sunlight saying this was a loss of something or other - bollocks - the ‘young girl’ he caught was blatently the angry guys daughter who when he attacked the house he was trying to rescue and Will Smith goes and blows them all up! Oh he kills himself in the end - crap ending. You never see his family die - he infects his dog and then kills it - to make it easier I suppose and then there’s this random god woman. I’ve never jumped/screamed/cried so much in a film.
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Oh and why can’t they turn the damn volume down a bit in the cinema! So him standing on glass doesn’t make me jump with fright - I don’t like loud noises.